Almighty Chicks: Blog & Devotional

Philippians 4:4-6 (New International Version)

4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

I’m at an odd spot. I have felt for several years now that God is calling me to more. I’m feeling drawn to getting out of my boat again. I’m really comfortable in my little boat, just rocking along. But I have this churning inside and I know that it’s God. I think he is trying to wake me up. I know what it is. I have felt very drawn to this seminar that is held in Concord NC. It is sponsored by The Proverbs 31 women. It is for women like myself that have an outreach ministry of all different kinds. For some reason I’m scared to even consider this. My insecurities are blazing about the possibilities. I don’t feel that I’m a good enough Christian to expand my works. I still goof up and say a bad word, think bad things about others, I’m not real compassionate, I don’t pray like I should. I’m definitely not a Beth Moore by no means. But this feeling is not going away. And of course after the insecurities come the excuses. First of all I can’t take off from the office for almost a week. I have a small real estate company, I do everything from answering the phones, paperwork to cleaning. I think the place will fall apart if I take off for more than 2 days at a time. Then you have the finances, as I said I have a small real estate company ‘REAL ESTATE” the market hasn’t been all that great and I just don’t have the extra money, by the way, what is extra money, my money is always the just scrape by or whoa, we can pay last months bills now. Next, THE FAMILY, how on earth can I expect my family to go without me for 5 days? Ok, I’ll admit I’m making excuses. We all know if this is something God wants me to do I will find the way.

I’m taking this to the Lord in prayer. If this is what he is directing me to, he will show me a way. I’m so thankful for kicking me out of the boat last time with the development of Almighty Chicks. That had me scared to death. I’m not a gifted scholar. I don’t use proper grammar but somehow he has shown me a gift (I guess you can call it that) that I can use to show others his Grace & Mercy. I’m asking that put me on your prayer list that God will help take away the hurdles if this is his will for me.

It’s taken me a while to realize this but I really struggle with anxiety & insecurities. I sometimes get my feelings hurt by acquaints and friends. This is something that has really slapped me around and makes me doubt myself and what God has me doing. This is just some of the battles of life. But thankfully I have a heavenly father that loves me more that I can imagine. He sent his son to die for my sins. Every day I come more to the realization of that and I want more and more for God to look at me and see his son in me. I want God to see my love and appreciate for Jesus dying on the cross and I know I can never live up to that but I am feeding on the love of Jesus (that was a sermon title recently-doesn’t that sound great!). I am growing in my Christian walk because of God’s grace. I know that these anxieties and insecurities don’t matter because in God’s eyes, I’ve fine! If he sees me as fine then I can see myself as such.

Thank you all so much for being a part of Almighty Chicks. I know I haven’t been sending out too much lately. I’ve been dealing with writers block. I’m really enjoying feeding on the love of Jesus. I try to spend each day reading and listening to the word and growing. I look forward to sending out more to you all soon. So remember you are forgiven and loved. You are saved by God’s grace. Keep your head up, faith strong and make every minute count. Lots of Love, Amy!